1937年初毓嶦到长春时，有一次溥仪在西花园东屋里举行家宴，他的弟、妹、妹夫们还有毓嶦他们几个学生都参加了，毓嶦在这次家宴上第一次见到了“皇后”婉容：她特别瘦，脸上化了妆，烫了发，穿件绿色丝绒的花旗袍，旗袍的面料特软。
那天吃的是西餐，毓嶦他们只顾低头吃，也不敢乱看。溥仪向婉容介绍了毓嶦，说“这是恭亲王溥伟的儿子”——如果论辈分，毓嶦和婉容的外祖父毓嶦朗是一辈。那时候婉容还可以出来参加宴会，溥仪的妹妹们有时也到她那边去。
那时溥仪住的缉熙楼是一幢两边对称的二层建筑，西半部是“帝居”，东半部是“后居”，有点老死不往来的势头。婉容的饮食起居由几个女佣人伺候着，还有一个太监，也是个大烟鬼，他们住在东厢房，有时偶尔靠近了东半部，就能闻见由门缝里飘出来的鸦片烟味，混杂了屋子里的各种怪味，实在是熏死人！
毓嶦第二次见婉容是在几年后的一天，毓嶦正随着溥仪上缉熙楼，刚上了一半，溥仪忽然朝对面一指，毓嶦一看，婉容正站在那边，蓬散着头发，穿着一件土黄色的睡袍，骨瘦如柴，满脸是鸦片烟灰的颜色，样子很是吓人。毓嶦也不敢多看，也不知溥仪作何感想。
在伪满洲国最后一周的日子里，苏联的飞机天天晚上飞到长春空袭，每一次空袭警报后，溥仪就带着后来的“贵人”李玉琴钻进防空洞，却从来没有叫过“皇后”婉容，看来在他眼里早就没有这个妻子了。
毓嶦想婉容的不幸，溥仪也有责任。关于溥仪，后来有很多传言，但毓嶦可以肯定地说，溥仪不是同性恋。婚姻悲剧的根源在于他身体上的原因，其实写两个英文字母：ED，就明白了。
在毓嶦去长春之前，曾听父亲讲过，有一年他去长春祝贺溥仪生日时，正好遇到溥仪生父——醇亲王载沣，还有其他从北京来的清廷遗老遗少们。他们当然谈到了皇嗣问题。清宫自同治皇帝以后就再没生过皇子，那时候溥仪也正是壮年，这些遗老遗少们的希望都寄托于“今上”了。那时大家都认为不生孩子的过错在女人，所以想让溥仪的父亲出面劝溥仪再娶一房。据毓嶦父亲说，王爷听了大家的请求之后，又摇头又摆手。“知子莫若父”，当时毓嶦父亲哪里知道溥仪的难言之隐呢！
溥仪后来在长春又找了谭玉龄，谭玉龄在北京不过是个中学生，十七八岁，但毓嶦看见她时，烫着头发、丝袜、高跟鞋，穿着很讲究的旗袍，完全是一副少奶奶的模样。吃饭时，毓嶦他们陪着溥仪，而谭玉龄由溥仪的妹妹们陪着，男女不同席。
溥仪在回忆录里说谭玉龄的死，“对毓嶦至今还是个谜”，毓嶦倒觉得，谭玉龄究竟得的什么病才是个谜。很多人说谭玉龄的死是日本人害死的，毓嶦如果说谭玉龄不是被日本人所害，毓嶦也没有证据，但毓嶦可以这样说：如果谭玉龄不找日本医生治病，她当时的病情十有八九也要死。
谭玉龄死后，吉冈安直一直张罗着给溥仪找日本女人。毓嶦那时在溥仪寝宫的桌子上，看到过一些女学生们的相片，都贴在一份“体检表”上，大概有20多份，但毓嶦也不敢正视，只能偷偷瞥一眼。
过了一段时间，在原本为皇后设计的“同德殿”的二层，本来是空白，忽然摆上了一张双人床；有一天毓嶦从缉熙楼后门出来，见到穿着中式花衣的女孩子，正在接受消毒——就是往身上和脚底下喷石碳酸液，然后就去了同德殿。晚饭时，一个女佣向溥仪汇报“奴才小姐”今天如何如何；过了没多久，女佣汇报时，突然改口“奴才贵人”，毓嶦他们明白，已经封李玉琴为贵人了。
溥仪纳了新贵人，也没见他的生活有何变化，毓嶦好像也从来没见过他在李玉琴的同德殿留宿，而且也没有和李玉琴一起吃过饭。溥仪高兴的时候，偶尔也讲讲李玉琴，说她现在也学会消毒了，比如有个苍蝇落在手上，她马上就用酒精棉球擦擦。这当然是溥仪“言传身教”的结果了。
不知为什么，溥仪在《毓嶦的前半生》里，对李玉琴提得很少，对在抚顺战犯管理所离婚的事也都删掉了。李玉琴后来到抚顺战犯管理所见过溥仪两三次，最后一次是下定决心离婚而来的，管理所特别破例留她在管理所住一宿，想帮溥仪做最后的努力。但留宿的结果，恰恰相反，似乎更促成了李玉琴离婚的决心。她从1943年进了伪皇宫到1945年8月两年多的时间，毓嶦只见他们分楼而居，不知是否曾真的同床共枕过。也许在战犯管理所的这一次是第一次，也是最后一次了。
毓嶦再见到李玉琴是20年后的事了。溥仪被特赦回北京后，当上了全国政协的文史委员会委员。有一次已在长春图书馆工作的李玉琴来北京，想见溥仪。溥仪那时还没有结婚，李玉琴早就又结了婚，孩子也大了。怕单独见面不太合适，就把毓嶦和毓岩找来作陪。
那时候溥仪住在全国政协的宿舍里，毓嶦他们陪着李玉琴去了。寒暄几句后，没有什么可说的。毓嶦和李玉琴坐在沙发上随便翻看画报，毓嶦突然想：这要在20年前，溥仪不把毓嶦打个半死才怪呢。
That is to eat the food, Yu-Shan they only bow to eat, do not Ganluan. Puyi introduced to the Wanrong Yu-Shan, said: "This is pro-Gong Wang Pu Wei's son" - If On Beifen, Yu-Shan's grandfather and Wanrong Yu-Shan Lang is a generation. Wanrong out at that time can also participate in the banquet, Pu Yi's younger sister sometimes also to her side.
At that time, Pu Yi Ji-hee floor of the living is a symmetrical on both sides of the two-story building, the western half of the "Dili Habitat," eastern half is "Habitat" and not a bit Laosi the momentum of exchanges. Wanrong the daily diet of several maids who serve in, there is a eunuch, is also a big Yangui, they lived in East rooms, sometimes sporadic and around the eastern half, we can smell from peeked out floating in the opium smoke , A hybrid of Guaiwei house, it is smoked dead!
Yu-Shan see Wanrong is the second time in a few years after the day, Yu-Shan is as Pu Yi Ji-hee on the floor, just on half of Pu Yi in the opposite one that all of a sudden, a Yu-Shan, Wanrong is standing at the side , San Zhao Peng hair, wearing a khaki-coloured Shuipao, Gushouruchai, opium face is the color of soot, the way is very scary. Yu-Shan can not see more of, I do not know Puyi Zuoheganxiang.
Puppet Manchukuo in the last week of the day, every day at the Soviet aircraft flew air strikes in Changchun, and every time air raid sirens, Puyi was on with the "贵人" Yu-Qin Li drilling the air-raid shelter, has never called the "Queen's "Wanrong, it seems that in his eyes that his wife had not long ago.
Wanrong Yu-Shan to the unfortunate, Puyi have a responsibility. About Puyi, but there are many rumors, but Yu-Shan sure that Puyi is not homosexual. Marriage is the root cause of the tragedy on the reasons for his body, in fact, wrote two letters in English: ED, to understand.
In Yu-Shan to Changchun, heard his father said, a year he went to Changchun birthday congratulations Puyi, the encounter is Puyi father - containing alcohol Wales Feng, there are other from Beijing to the Ching court Yilaoyishao have. Huang Si course, they talked about the issue. Qinggong since Emperor Tongzhi after never been crown prince of Health, when Pu Yi is precisely their prime, these Yilaoyishao are pinning their hopes on "on this." At that time, everybody does not think children in the woman's fault, so want to come forward Puyi's father advised Puyi Zaiqu one room. According to Yu-Shan said his father, Wang Yeh's request after listening to everyone, shaking his head and Baishou. "知子莫若父" At that time, Yu-Shan Puyi know where the father Nanyanzhiyin?
Puyi was in Changchun also found a Tan Yuling, Tanyu Ling in Beijing only a secondary school students, Shiqi Ba-year-old, but Yu-Shan see her, the hot hair, stockings, high heels, wearing a very particular about the Qipao, Is a Shaonai Nai form. Dinner, Yu-Shan they accompany Puyi, and Tan Yuling by Pu Yi's younger sister to accompany the men and women of different seats.
Pu Yi in his memoirs, said Tan Yuling's death, "Yu-Shan is still a mystery," Yu-Shan inverted think, Tan Yuling what is a disease is a mystery. Many people say that Tan Yuling's death was a Japanese killed, Yu-Shan Tan Yuling said that if the Japanese were not the victims, Yu-Shan also no evidence, but Yu-Shan can say this: If Tan Yuling not find a Japanese doctor Medical treatment, she was in all likelihood have died of illness.
Tan Yuling after his death, has been Jigang An straight ZHANG Luo Pu Yi to find a Japanese woman. At that time, Yu-Shan in the Puyi Qingong on the table, to see some photos of female students, are posted on a "medical examination table," and probably 20-odd, but dared not face up to Yu-Shan, can only be secretly Pie Yiyan .
After a period of time, in the original design for the Queen's "Tongde Dian" two-story, it is empty, suddenly put on the one double bed; one day Yu-Shan Ji-hee from the floor, out the back door, to see wearing a Chinese Huayi The girls, are being disinfected - that is to the body and the soles of the feet of Dan Tansuan spraying liquid, and then go to the Hall of Tongde. Dinner, a maid reported to Puyi, "I Miss" do today; Not long after, the maid reported, suddenly changed, "I贵人," Yu-Shan them to understand, has been closed for贵人the LI Yu-qin.
Puyi satisfied that the new favourites, also Meixian what changes in his life, Yu-Shan seems to have never seen him in the Yu-Qin Li Tongde residential palace, but also did not eat meals together and Yu-Qin Li. Puyi pleased that the time and occasionally talk about Yu-Qin Li, said she is also the Institute of disinfection, such as there is a fly landed in hand, she immediately used alcohol cotton Caca. This, of course, Puyi "Yanzhuanshenjiao" the results.
I do not know why, Puyi in the "Yu-Shan's former life", very little mention of Yu-Qin Li, Fushun war criminals in the management of divorce are also a matter deleted. Yu-Qin Li Fushun war criminals came to management two or three times seen Puyi, the last time is determined from the divorce and manages special exception to stay one night, she manages to live, Pu Yi would like to help make a final effort. However, the results of live-in, on the contrary, it seems that even led to the Yu-Qin Li's determination to divorce. She from 1943 into the Wei Huanggong to August 1945 more than two years of time, Yu-Shan saw their sub-floor door, I do not know whether it has really Tongchuanggongzhen too. Perhaps the management of the war this time is the first and the last time.
Yu-Shan Yu-Qin Li is to see that after 20 years of things. Puyi was returned to Beijing after the amnesty, when the CPPCC National Committee on the Cultural and Historical Commission. Once in the work of the Library Yu-Qin Li Changchun to Beijing and see Puyi. Puyi was also not married, Yu-Qin Li also end a long marriage, the children also larger. Do not be afraid to meet separately appropriate, they Yu-Shan and Yu-rock found Zuopei.
At that time the CPPCC National Committee, Pu Yi lived in the dormitories, Yu-Shan Yu-Qin Li went to accompany them. After GREeting a few, have nothing to say. Yu-Shan and Yu-Qin Li sitting on a sofa casual look at Pictorial, Yu-Shan suddenly think: This is 20 years ago, Pu Yi Yu-Shan not to make a Bansicaiguai it.
