《War And Peace》Book9 CHAPTER VIII

《War And Peace》　Book9 　CHAPTER VIII
　　　　by Leo Tolstoy

AFTER HIS INTERVIEW with Pierre in Moscow, Prince Andrey went away to
Petersburg, telling his family that he had business there. In reality his object
was to meet Anatole Kuragin there. He thought it necessary to meet him, but on
inquiring for him when he reached Petersburg, he found he was no longer there.
Pierre had let his brother-in-law know that Prince Andrey was on his track.
Anatole Kuragin had promptly obtained a commission from the minister of war, and
had gone to join the army in Moldavia. While in Petersburg Prince Andrey met
Kutuzov, his old general, who was always friendly to him, and Kutuzov proposed
that he should accompany him to Moldavia, where the old general was being sent
to take command of the army. Prince Andrey received an appointment on the staff
of the commander, and went to Turkey.

Prince Andrey did not think it proper to write to Kuragin to challenge him to
a duel. He thought that a challenge coming from him, without any new pretext for
a duel, would be compromising for the young Countess Rostov, and therefore he
was seeking to encounter Kuragin in person in order to pick a quarrel with him
that would serve as a pretext for a duel. But in the Turkish army too Prince
Andrey failed to come across Kuragin. The latter had returned to Russia shortly
after Prince Andrey reached the Turkish army. In a new country, amid new
surroundings, Prince Andrey found life easier to bear. After his betrothed's
betrayal of him, which he felt the more keenly, the more studiously he strove to
conceal its effect on him from others, he found it hard to bear the conditions
of life in which he had been happy, and felt still more irksome the freedom and
independence he had once prized so highly. He could not now think the thoughts
that had come to him for the first time on the field of Austerlitz, that he had
loved to develop with Pierre, and that had enriched his solitude at
Bogutcharovo, and later on in Switzerland and in Rome. Now he dreaded indeed
those ideas that had then opened to him boundless vistas of light. Now he was
occupied only with the most practical interests lying close at hand, and in no
way associated with those old ideals. He clutched at these new interests the
more eagerly the more the old ideals were hidden from him. It was as though the
infinite, fathomless arch of heaven that had once stood over him had been
suddenly transformed into a low, limited vault weighing upon him, with
everything in it clear, but nothing eternal and mysterious.

Of the pursuits that presented themselves, military service was the simplest
and the most familiar to him. He performed the duties of a general on duty on
Kutuzov's staff with zeal and perseverance, surprising Kutuzov by his eagerness
for work and his conscientiousness. When he missed Kuragin in Turkey, Prince
Andrey did not feel it necessary to gallop back to Russia in search of him. Yet
in spite of all his contempt for Kuragin, in spite of all the arguments by which
he sought to persuade himself that Kuragin was not worth his stooping to quarrel
with him, he knew that whatever length of time might elapse, when he did meet
him, he would be unable to help challenging him as a starving man cannot help
rushing upon food. And the consciousness that the insult was not yet avenged,
that his wrath had not been expended, but was still stored up in his heart,
poisoned the artificial composure, which Prince Andrey succeeded in obtaining in
Turkey in the guise of studiously busy and somewhat ambitious and vain
energy.

In 1812, when the news of the war with Napoleon reached Bucharest (where
Kutuzov had been fourteen months, spending days and nights together with his
Wallachian mistress), Prince Andrey asked to be transferred to the western army.
Kutuzov, who was by now sick of Bolkonsky's energy, and felt it a standing
reproach to his sloth, was very ready to let him go, and gave him a commission
for Barclay de Tolly.

Before joining the army of the west, which was in May encamped at Drissa,
Prince Andrey went to Bleak Hills, which was directly in his road, only three
versts from the Smolensk high-road. The last three years of Prince Andrey's life
had been so full of vicissitudes, he had passed through such changes of thought
and feeling, and seen such varied life (he had travelled both in the east and
the west), that it struck him as strange and amazing to find at Bleak Hills life
going on in precisely the same routine as ever. He rode up the avenue to the
stone gates of the house, feeling as though it were the enchanted, sleeping
castle. The same sedateness, the same cleanliness, the same silence reigned in
the house; there was the same furniture, the same walls, the same sounds, the
same smell, and the same timid faces, only a little older. Princess Marya was
just the same timid, plain girl, no longer in her first youth, wasting the best
years of her life in continual dread and suffering, and getting no benefit or
happiness out of her existence. Mademoiselle Bourienne was just the same
self-satisfied, coquettish girl, enjoying every moment of her life, and filled
with the most joyous hopes for the future. She seemed only to have gained
boldness, so Prince Andrey thought. The tutor he had brought back from
Switzerland, Dessalle, was wearing a coat of Russian cut, and talked broken
Russian to the servants, but he was just the same narrow-minded, cultivated,
conscientious, pedantic preceptor. The only physical change apparent in the old
prince was the loss of a tooth, that left a gap at the side of his mouth. In
character he was the same as ever, only showing even more irritability and
scepticism as to everything that happened in the world. Nikolushka was the only
one who had changed: he had grown taller, and rosy, and had curly dark hair.
When he was merry and laughing, he unconsciously lifted the upper lip of his
pretty little mouth, just as his dead mother, the little princess, used to do.
He was the only one not in bondage to the law of sameness that reigned in that
spellbound sleeping castle. But though externally all was exactly as of old, the
inner relations of all the persons concerned had changed since Prince Andrey had
seen them last. The household was split up into two hostile camps, which held
aloof from one another, and only now came together in his presence, abandoning
their ordinary habits on his account. To one camp belonged the old prince,
Mademoiselle Bourienne, and the architect; to the other—Princess Marya,
Dessalle, Nikolushka, and all the nurses.

During his stay at Bleak Hills all the family dined together, but every one
was ill at ease, and Prince Andrey felt that he was being treated as a guest for
whom an exception was being made, and that his presence made all of them feel
awkward. The first day Prince Andrey could not help being aware of this at
dinner, and sat in silence. The old prince noticed his unnatural dumbness, and
he, too, preserved a sullen silence, and immediately after dinner withdrew to
his own room. Later in the evening when Prince Andrey went in to him, and began
telling him about the campaign of the young Prince Kamensky to try and rouse
him, the old prince, to his surprise, began talking about Princess Marya,
grumbling at her superstitiousness, and her dislike of Mademoiselle Bourienne,
who was, he said, the only person really attached to him.

The old prince declared that it was all Princess Marya's doing if he were
ill; that she plagued and worried him on purpose, and that she was spoiling
little Prince Nikolay by the way she petted him, and the silly tales she told
him. The old prince knew very well that he tormented his daughter, and that her
life was a very hard one. But he knew, too, that he could not help tormenting
her, and considered that she deserved it. “Why is it Andrey, who sees it, says
nothing about his sister?” the old prince wondered. “Why, does he suppose I'm a
scoundrel or an old fool to be alienated from my daughter and friendly with this
Frenchwoman for no good reason? He doesn't understand, and so I must explain it
to him; he must hear what I have to say about it,” thought the old prince, and
so he began to explain the reason why he could not put up with his daughter's
unreasonable character.

“If you ask me,” said Prince Andrey, not looking at his father (it was the
first time in his life that he had blamed his father), “I did not wish to speak
of it—but, if you ask me, I'll tell you my opinion frankly in regard to the
whole matter. If there is any misunderstanding and estrangement between you and
Masha, I can't blame her for it—I know how she loves and respects you. If you
ask me,” Prince Andrey continued, losing his temper, as he very readily did in
these latter days, “I can only say one thing; if there are misunderstandings,
the cause of them is that worthless woman, who is not fit to be my sister's
companion.”

The old man stared for a moment at his son, and a forced smile revealed the
loss of a tooth, to which Prince Andrey could not get accustomed, in his
face.

“What companion, my dear fellow? Eh! So you've talked it over already!
Eh?”

“Father, I had no wish to judge you,” said Prince Andrey, in a hard and
spiteful tone, “but you have provoked me, and I have said, and shall always say,
that Marie is not to blame, but the people to blame—the person to blame—is that
Frenchwoman …”

“Ah, he has passed judgment! … he has passed judgment!” said the old man, in
a low voice, and Prince Andrey fancied, with embarrassment. But immediately
after he leapt up and screamed, “Go away, go away! Let me never set eyes on you
again! …”

Prince Andrey would have set off at once, but Princess Marya begged him to
stay one day more. During that day Prince Andrey did not see his father, who
never left his room, and admitted no one to see him but Mademoiselle Bourienne
and Tihon, from which he inquired several times whether his son had gone. The
following day before starting, Prince Andrey went to the part of the house where
his son was to be found. The sturdy little boy, with curls like his mother's,
sat on his knee. Prince Andrey began telling him the story of Bluebeard, but he
sank into dreamy meditation before he had finished the story. He was not
thinking of the pretty boy, his child, even while he held him on his knee; he
was thinking of himself. He sought and was horrified not to find in himself
either remorse for having provoked his father's anger, or reGREt at leaving home
(for the first time in his life) on bad terms with him. What meant still more to
him was that he could not detect in himself a trace of the tender affection he
had once felt for his boy, and had hoped to revive in his heart, when he petted
the child and put him on his knee.

“Come, tell me the rest,” said the boy. Prince Andrey took him off his knee
without answering, and went out of the room.

As soon as Prince Andrey gave up his daily pursuits, especially to return to
the old surroundings in which he had been when he was happy, weariness of life
seized upon him as intensely as ever, and he made haste to escape from these
memories, and to find some work to do as quickly as possible.

“Are you really going, Andrey?” his sister said to him.

“Thank God that I can go,” said Prince Andrey. “I am very sorry you can't
too.”

“What makes you say that?” said Princess Marya. “How can you say that when
you are going to this awful war, and he is so old? Mademoiselle Bourienne told
me he keeps asking about you.…” As soon as she spoke of that, her lips quivered,
and tears began to fall. Prince Andrey turned away and began walking up and down
the room.

“Ah, my God! my God!” he said. “And to think what and who—what scum can be
the cause of misery to people!” he said with a malignance that terrified
Princess Marya.

She felt that when he uttered the word “scum,” he was thinking not only of
Mademoiselle Bourienne, who was the cause of her misery, but also of the man who
had ruined his own happiness. “Andrey, one thing I beg, I beseech of you,” she
said, touching his elbow and looking at him with eyes that shone through her
tears. “I understand you.” (Princess Marya dropped her eyes.) “Don't imagine
that sorrow is the work of men. Men are His instruments.” She glanced upwards a
little above Prince Andrey's head with the confident, accustomed glance with
which one looks towards a familiar portrait. “Sorrow is sent by Him, and not by
men. Men are the instrument of His will, they are not to blame. If it seems to
you that some one has wronged you—forget it, and forgive. We have no right to
punish. And you will know the happiness of forgiveness.”

“If I were a woman, I would, Marie. That's woman's virtue. But a man must
not, and cannot, forgive and forget,” he said, and though till that minute he
had not been thinking of Kuragin, all his unsatisfied revenge rose up again in
his heart. “If Marie is beginning to persuade me to forgive, it means that I
ought long ago to have punished him,” he thought.

And making no further reply to Princess Marya, he began dreaming now of the
happy moment of satisfied hate when he would meet Kuragin. He knew he was with
the army.

Princess Marya besought her brother to stay another day, telling him how
wretched her father would be, she knew, if Andrey went away without being
reconciled to him. But Prince Andrey answered that he would probably soon be
back from the army, that he would certainly write to his father, and that their
quarrel would only be more embittered by his staying longer now. “Remember that
misfortunes come from God, and that men are never to blame,” were the last words
he heard from his sister, as he said good-bye to her.

“So it must be so!” thought Prince Andrey, as he drove out of the avenue.
“She, poor innocent creature, is left to be victimised by an old man, who has
outlived his wits. The old man feels he is wrong, but he can't help himself. My
boy is growing up and enjoying life in which he will be deceived or deceiving
like every one else. I am going to the army—what for? I don't know myself; and I
want to meet that man whom I despise, so as to give him a chance to kill me and
sneer at me!” All the conditions of life had been the same before, but before
they had all seemed to him coherent, and now they had all fallen apart. Life
seemed to Prince Andrey a series of senseless phenomena following one another
without any connection.